When The World Passes You By

I don't even know what to say. It feels like just yesterday I was home all day every day {mostly}, able to spend every free minute with...

I don't even know what to say. It feels like just yesterday I was home all day every day {mostly}, able to spend every free minute with L doing fun activities and making the most of it.

Now it all it seems like I do it work, and I feel guilty.

Now, I don't feel guilty for actually working and making a living, no. I don't feel guilty for being able to provide for my child.

I feel guilty that I work such terrible hours that half the time when I get home, he's already in bed asleep. I feel guilty that when I go to work he asks me not to work late, because let's face it... when bedtime is 7:30 and mommy's not home until 8, yeah, I wouldn't want her to work late either.

I feel guilty that I can't spend the school holidays with him having fun.

I know this is only temporary. Just until I get a teaching job.

I know all these things. But I hate it.

Let's be honest here, I really don't like my job all that much. Sitting for 8 hours a day with most of the time having people yell down a phone at me? It's not fun.

I've put on weight, I feel left out in my own workplace, I stuck in a building all day. I get headaches from staring at a computer {pretty sure I'll end up needing glasses}.

I LIVE FOR THE WEEKEND.

I'm not doing something I love, and saying that I live for the weekend... that makes me sad, but it's true. I live for the times that I can just spend at home with my family, doing nothing in particular.

I feel like everything has been passing me by so quickly. I need to slow down and take in all the moments. I need to make the most of every minute I get.
 

 

Now, I won't go into too much detail on this post, but I do have some exciting news, and it's going to sound terrible after everything I've just said in this post, but I hope in another post I will be able to explain myself.

I'm going to America for 3-4 months on my own, do I feel guilty about this? No.

I'm a single mother to the most gorgeous nine year old ever, with degrees in teaching and commerce. Writing and blogging is a big hobby of mine, as well as baking, fashion, make up, and DIY's. This is my small space on the internet for me to share all my thoughts and ideas and everything in between.

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